It is a new year and just like every other person out there I’m taking time to set goals and a focus for this year. Last year a lot of things happened, more good than bad actually, even though the year ended on such a sour note for us. If you missed it you can read about it here.

Throughout our infertility journey I have had many people tell me how brave I am to share my journey. Here is the truth though, I don’t feel brave, I actually feel scared. I was thinking about a word for the year today. I have never actually declared a word for the year before but last year my word was hopeful. I didn’t have to declare it I was hopeful for things to turn out the way my heart longs for them to. While I will remain hopeful this year too it is time for a new word.

This year I am feeling a pull toward the word brave but the word trust also hit me pretty hard. I quickly realized that in order to trust I must be brave. While I do not necessarily feel brave all the time I am much better at being brave than I am at trusting. So TRUST and BRAVE are my words for this year. I can’t just pick one because the combination of these two hold a lot for me. I ran across this quote while trying to decide on my word and it literally brought me to tears. (Thank you Michael Goodman for sharing this book. I saw it and had to pick it up!)

Trust that all you’ve learned was worth learning, no matter what answer you have or do not have about what particular use it has in your life. Let whatever mysterious star-light that guided you this far guide you onward into the crazy beauty that awaits.                     -Cheryl Strayed

In that moment I knew that trust had to be my word. I know that I need to learn to trust my body, trust the unknown (to me) plan for my life, trust my people, trust science and medicine, trust the journey, and trust in myself. I’m not sure exactly where these words are going to take me but I’m excited to find out!


Some other areas of focus and goal making I’ve also been thinking hard on over the last few days.

Health– I want to gain muscle back. I lost a lot of it over the last year not being able to work out like used too. I have a plan to help me reach my goal. My plan to gain my muscle back is to get more consistent workouts in and focus on my nutrition. My workout plan of attack is to get my workouts in early starting with before 8am and working my way to earlier. I’m being realistic here I know that I’m not going to get up before 6am right off so I’m working my way there. I also plan to attend workout classes at the gym twice a week. For my nutrition I will follow the Tone It Up Nutrition Plan, basically more greens and less crap. Simple right! I am also participating in the Tone It Up Challenge, hard core for the next three weeks since I’m on a free pass for workouts and everything until my body rest is over aka my pack of birth control. 😉 Once my “free pass” is over I will have to cut back a little as not to destroy any future baby creating progress but I will hopefully have a good workout routine down by then. (I ate really well this morning then got off track this afternoon, tomorrow will be better!)

Everything Else (Ha!)- I bought a notebook to use as my daily journal for ideas, to do list, etc. It fits in my purse and is super simple. I had to have it when I saw the words on the front “trust your crazy ideas”

When I very first became a stay at home mom I made a weekly cleaning chart and I really hope to get back to it. I will have to alter it a little but it gives me a focus for each day. I love feeling like I really accomplished something big each day even if it was just making the beds. My house will also stay a lot cleaner, yay!!!

I always meal plan but I’m convinced there is a way that we can avoid wasting so much food. I put a few days of left overs in our week to try to help prevent so much waste. I’m not sure this week will be the best test since Andrew is gone for 3 nights but we will see. I will keep you updated! How do you avoid wasting food?

I also plan to read more. I’m going to try to hit as many of these prompts as possible even though I’m not sure that I will actually be able to read 26 books. Who knows maybe I will read more than that! I’ve already downloaded 3 books to my ipad and started reading one. I’ll share the books I read with #26BOOKSwithBringingUpBurns. Feel free to join and follow BringingUpBurns on Instagram, she is one creative and talented woman!

Today was a great day. Thank you for reading, I hope you had a great first Monday of 2016!


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